I AM FREAKIN’ PISSED OFF! REALLY NOW!
I want to express it but my charcoal pencils are nowhere to be found! Bleh!
Now, I have to wait til tomorrow to fully transfer all the anger I am keeping here (inside me) to that freakin paper with a little help from my freakin charcoal pencils!!!
Im missing someone so much!
Shucks! Ang tagal ko na siya hindi nakikita!!!
Ryoma Echizen…where art thou? Ang ating rendezvous everyday at four pm. Haaay..sobrang busy na kasi e…
Crush # 1 David Villa of Spain
Crush # 2 Ryoma Echizen of Japan
"It’s just geography."
"Film is a collaborative art. Everyone is important–from utility to the executive producers."
Apir! Date ulit tayo! (Though may iba na akong gusto. Cheka!) 
Wow! I miss them! Big time!
I just realized this as we walk the deserted corporate city of Ayala in Makati at twelvishsomething midnight.
With partners changing from time to time as we sweep our feet against the usually crowded streets and corners, it just felt right.
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Irene and I walking very close next to each other, our ears swallowing her I-pod’s (?) earphones, and grooving to the beat of highschool musical soundtrack. Heck, we were so oblivious.
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Pausing for a while to catch our breaths from a very long stroll through the complicated intestine of this corporate city, Glenn smiling at me and calling me, Alanis Morisette (?).
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Remembering Leo’s remark that my new look is very bohemian.
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Pam and me bonding together again…pissing each other off very dearly and "pusa-like", the only way we know…Haha. We both enjoy pissing each other off. This is our happiness. Haha!!!
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Pam ssking an acquaintance if he’s my boyfriend, because if he is, he’s dead. Then suddenly blurting out that she is my girlfriend. My acquaintance was horrified. Surprise! Surprise! Nah, she’s just fooling around! But his reaction? Priceless! Haha!
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Snuggling, embracing leo’s arm as we walk the damp street, wind blowing our hair and stinging our faces. Hmmm…I feel comfortable and warm.
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Pam and I sandwiching leo, forcing him to escort the two of us as we cross the street, cars with their lights on us, waiting for the "Go signal"
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ES looking at me and saying. "You are pretty, Asta." (Thanks ES!) Then moments later, again "You are pretty, Asta." (Thank you again!) And again? (This I can’t remember. Hahaha!)
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Irene, Dohna, Glenn, Pam, ES, Leo, and me coming out of the movie house (cinema 2, greenbelt 1)
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Me getting lost. I forgot how to get to greenbelt 1. Just okay, I’ve seen lots of cute guys! Hahaha!!!
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Irene, Leo and Me on our way home.
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Being rowdy in Tapa King. Eating Champorado, then there was Pam, invading my precious moment–my devouring of the hot champorado. She helped me a lot in cleaning up my bowl. Whew!
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Starbucks. Sleepy bunch of people.
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Irene, Leo and I riding a bus.
Nakakaasar ka naman!
Bakit na naman ba?
Sabi ko di ba, huwag muna?
E magagawa ko kung nagising ulit ako?
Naman o! ‘Yan tuloy…naalala ko na naman siya.
E wala naman masama di ba? Sabi nga ni Ate Jone, i-enjoy mo lang.
E kasi napigilan ko na dati e.
Yun ang akala mo. Dormant. Yun yon! Hindi extinct. Ibig sabihin, may chance at possibility na mabuhay o maging active ulit.
Naalala mo n’un?
Ano? Nung kandaiyak ka dahil sa kanya? Oo naman!
Grabe ‘yun. Nung time na ‘yon ayoko siya makita na ever!
Pero ano ginawa mo? Mas lumapit ka pa sa gusto mong iwasan. Haaay…Bakit nga ba?
Para maging numb ako. Makita ko siya, masasaktan ako. Tanggap lang ako. Hanggang sa wala nang sakit na maramdaman.
Grabe ka n’un. Pati si Ate Jone naalarma sa way mong ‘yun.
Kaya nga e. Ang nakakainis, di aware yung lalaking ‘yun. Galing kong mag cover up noh? Mas masakit.
Mas nasasaktan ka kasi alam mong hindi naman siya ang nag cause sa ‘yo ng pain and hurt. Sarili mo mismo.
E sa ganun e.
Akala ko ba ayaw mo mas bata sa ‘yo?
Yun sana ang gusto ko. Paano naman ang gusto para sa akin ng Writer ng love story ko? Kaya mas matanda o mas bata, wala na akong pakialam.
So active ulit yan?
Ewan.
